Birth of energy and matter

Matter is made up of energy. Trapped energy is simply matter. But matter is different from energy, energy is derived from matter, and matter is formed from energy.
Here is one of the important fundamental question, how did the universe even began. How did everything, the matter, forces, light that we see, the perception of senses that we perceive all began? What was before it all if there was anything. Mind may think as the universe began from nothing, somehow, and mind still exist till the curiosity and the force of questions in the mind is diminished. So does that nothing evolve into something and into everything that we know and will ever know. Based on reason, we can create a concept of some force that evolved from nothingness, or some force that brought something from nothingness. For example, creation of energy, the creation of energy from nothingness, one may rationally think that energy is created in pairs (positive and negative that together forms nothing), or in some other forms which do not exist for e.g. triads, or quads, etc. But a form of energy stayed and other forms went away, in such a reasoning, the questions come down on why the reasoner is believing for energy to be created in pairs in positive or negative energy. How can one come to the true understanding of universe. How can one believe by the self, or is it the problem of definitions in the society to convince others of the definitions in believing it is true, irrespective of whether if the definition is ultimately true or not. It seems that the when soul is closed off from believing, its reach is smaller than those who believe, i.e. a leap of faith or a chance can have a different outcome than staying in closed off thought process.

We can start from what we know, or I can start from what I know, I as a single entity of existence that I deem. I have my own definitions that are largely derived or part of the whole existent definitions created by the past and the present. I exist, I observe or feel or think, I act. All of these are kind of the same, but existence if merely an existence of a think. I wonder if in imagination the universe can ever be defined, or is it always changing. All my reasoning is dependent on my observations, and my observations are dependent on how I’m made and what can I do or perceive.
(a comment: AI in its current form is incapable of such existence.)
(another comment: the feelings I feel in the back of my head, the projections of memory flash when I think on some new feeling concept, and mental projections or stimuli in my mind give me the experience of something forgotten, just my past ingrained in my brain through structural positions of molecules which represent that information maybe, some how still conscious perception existing which gives me that perception based on structural positions of those molecules or through resulting neural activity in spiking neurons).

So, coming back to even how universe ever began. One thing, for the most part, time does not exist as most of us think we do, the past is merely ingrained in our brains, and we conceptualize future in our brains. If you remove all the motion the atom in front of you has seen, and only focus on the atom, and imagine its progress through its birth, you can get rid of the constraining concept of time in your head, and think even more freely. The atom as we all have agreed (and we know) is formed from things we call nucleus (protons and neutrons bounded in a blob, each an hadron a blob of quarks matter and gluon force), and surrounding electrons. The formation of constituents of that atom can traced down to energy, and another property we observe and call as charge (that we just know), which we say is a property of matter, and matter is formed from energy, so charge must be formed from energy in this space, or energy and charge. So in the space where atom came from, somehow from nothingness, energy came into that space (might as well charge in pairs of + and -), and these aspects in the space arranged themselves into an arrangement we call and think of as atom, steadily existing in the space, atom by itself never changes, but the dynamics of proton neutron goes on forever, or not if the EM forces keeps it heated up despite the loss of energy in motion ( in space) through radiation.

So simply, the atom (or the basic constituent) is bought into existence from nothing, is more like an illusion becoming an reality in front of the observer. Although, the observer did not or may or may not have, say, wished for it…
or we can say the universe is capable of only creating some initial fluctuations which develop into an atom as it follows, and rest everything in the universe is the structure of atoms, and such stuff.

Whatever the reality, our minds, true and rational, align with the reality, and observer’s existence may or may not have control over what is being observed.
… we form the concept and which is really aligned with the working of universe,
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and this post is ‘the created’ (me) trying to understand ‘the early creation’

and there is a certain feeling of conscious experience associated with this thinking to me. meanwhile most of the thinking is restricted by language and words which don’t mean the things they depict and I think mathematicians are always lost in imagination when trying to come up with fundamental nature of reality

wonder how existence exist and also ceases to exist

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