I’m not what I feel, but the structure feeling it

We beings feel, and act based on it. There is also thinking, mostly rational which has made survival of a being, but also based on feeling.
But as I think a bit more deeper, just like mass which feels force of gravity, but is not the force, perhaps I am is what I am, and what I feel is just the force of it. Then I am this structure of matter that feels, and consciousness is only the feeling (or the force of this ether or this universe’s flow) resulting on the structure, that is mostly ionic-motion based.

Here is another perspective, from being what we are as matter to conscious back to matter.

So does electronic structure feel?, Also,from when we are born, to when we no longer pump ions through the network structure of our brain, we feel a form of existence, seem to reward (feeling is the reward of existence) ourselves with the feeling we get.

Perhaps structural motion, (if we track the ions flowing we can come to a flow or structure that) is responsible for that feeling.

But in all just like the idea of “mass is a wrinkle in space time” perhaps trapped energy, and force it feels is a part of it. So a being’s structure exist together in space-consciousness (perhaps it does span across time, as much as the flow allows, in brain, i.e. there is no particular instant, but averages over period that is felt, for e.g. color, or sound intensity, or why a particular frequency feels as (associates to) a particular sound.

But what about color and sound and different senses, that result, for a same ionic signal, perhaps there is also that the visual pathways can be activated by any signal to stimulate vision, and sound by stimulate sound (synesthesia), or phantom limb, the feeling telling something is there, but isn’t.

There is lot of stigma and prejudice in society, where people are made felt shame that isn’t there. Its not them, but the person making them feel shame is getting a feeling of shame, that resonates with the surroundings. Humans, being similar to other humans, unfortunately succumb to it.