Working, passion , and issues

There is problem with working with passion.
You only get paid as long as you can keep on working in society. If you stop working,  you don’t get paid. If there is pension,  due to inflation,  often it’s not enough,
To exist,  is to be able to get money to live off, is to be able to work, is to be able to be capable, is to devoid self of your freedom.

I have to look for a job outside academia,  and I have no clue.  Most often none of the company fits, if I’m myself and rigid.  And if I join any company,  it’s their agenda,  their will,  I will just be their hands. I will have my own decision making,  but I will ponder what am I doing here,  why am I here, in the first place.

Making a living off anything is anad idea. Once you get disabled or old, income stops,  life is not worth living then. Ideals change,  and it’s not the same if living is bought under someone else’s favor.

There are plenty of jobs in the world,  jobs to be finished and created new,  only the interests ams goals need to be aligned.  It seems very complex for a simple thinker like me to process,  what rest of the people already do,  and make a living.  Why does everything look like magic to me… like everything is hidden below is what I want.

Oh, I’m a researcher,  meant to explore the underneath to there is nothing left,  but there is infinite, I could tire myself to death with this job,  so maybe I need to change the pace or do something else,  oh no.. i still need money, like water,  shouldn’t it just be given so all could live. Gotta wait for Robots to do all the work so there can be a world with free money,  and I won’t have to do another job or be forced to do.