Excerpts of my mind

A random post out of nowhere.  To share!

Had to write this somewhere. Philosophical. Why PhD is called ‘Doctor of Philosophy?’ , because we go crazy in the process and have to treat ourselves. Lot of air in my thoughts. Could be for reading as a fiction. “An idea is like a virus”- inception. We choose which ones we want, only the stable ones. Converting space into air and water into earth.
My perspective, and everything here is not a literal translation. My taste of writing. No figures!, which are easier to make. Combine art and research! When you read this, imagine it instead, in your own perspective, feel flows.

Doing research is like taking a torch and running in the darkness. You find what you find. All I’m looking for is a street to walk on. Will I find a new one, or go back to the ones I already know? Stars guide me in the night. I like astronomy. From far apart, all I can see is a bright source of light, which is guarded strongly, in the process I’m visiting my old roads which I walked on. I guess I had dropped some interesting topics, out of circumstances, I’m picking up them again, and trying them, to reach to the bright source of light. This source of light is not a research topic, but is a being (is it myself? or not ), in a sense. Analogies are great, I think I make the crazy ones. Its easier to find analogies, when one thinks non-linearly. Somehow triggered. It could be harder to reach the stars, unless we have some form of warp drive.

Imagine a research group as a squad searching for interesting stuff which could be usable or as a decorative piece. Everybody is equipped with a torch on their head, which they have to use themselves in the dark. One can start slowly being careful of stuff lying around, or one can run. But, once they know the environment, they do a marathon. I keep on collecting stuff, sometimes my bag is too full to keep it, better drop it at known places where other people can actually look at it (This blog for e.g., putting a piece which is very valuable for me, but it could be decorative for others’ as well).

Analogies work. But what are they? Correlations and patterns in brain as they are perceived. The knowledge we acquire gets imprinted in the memories and forms patterns of unconscious thinking. This allows to receive external stimuli and process them. Do we have the will to decide?. Here the ‘we’ could be the body and the mind. Mind wants, body restricts. Body wants, mind restricts. Like the head of the department and the students. One man army! though some diffusion (or gradient) makes it easy to climb.

What is Consciousness ?
Its a point source for all thoughts. Either it takes the entire space or none. Either its the brain, or the concept of it, and is perceived somehow. We acquire and dig knowledge through experimentation and define. Whatever we see or hear is a concept in our mind. Which we map to the brain regions after we study them, for e.g.
A way to think is ‘ thinking defines the future’. Assuming that, if one believes in science, the boundary is stable. Its the repeated experimentation with statistical validation of a single occurrence. Single occurrences feel like magic.

Knowing about consciousness, it questions itself about the unconscious. Like realizing the perceptions that are received, our brain is a liquid state machine, and photonic and sonic sensory inputs drive them. Not only that, every noise can be considered as a pseudorandom sequence that is defined in space-time through others’ activity. If brain is affected by radiation, there is radiation coming from electrical activity of the neurons… There is an ocean of thoughts here, where is harder to write, unless I actually write a story.

What is True?
Ever thought if the person meant what they meant or they said it out in cold, and got perceived differently? What is the intention for saying anything? It turns out that languages one uses defines the impression of them on others. Same word could convey many different meanings, unless accustomed. True is a perception of recurrence of those in which we trust. Nature Journal for e.g. No wonder, when trying to reproduce a paper always comes up with mistakes (missed-take). For example, One could be battling the nature of writing, rather than the actual simulations or experiences. So it could be best to gather the results that are obtained, and if they are impressive enough, share them. If people agree, that could be perceived as “True”. Do it over millennia, and it could be harder to even break down. If bodily beings evolve over billions of years, the patterns are ingrained. 1 2 and 3.

Crazy looks as normal, when one gets ‘high’ in mind, but the good kind. Like forming all connections again in the network, and pruning them down to the desired state. One way is to write, or talk to others, so that one can finally be able to become free of those thoughts, as they go out in nature, photons, waves, sounds, noises, through medium, writing our history. We may forget some things, but what are dreams? I think of them as the brain trying to relax and in the process the neural activity that occurs. Or they are ‘some other things’ which are harder to relate to in general.. and even difficult to convey. Beings dream.

What is a Being?
When one extends their thinking about who they are, they can first think, as they are the ‘singularity in mind’, or the brain, or the body, or even more, the entire earth or the universe. Its when one can feel the environment through e-motions.
Time is an illusion, which is captured by space and the inscribed memory of clocks and atoms. Nature has laws which prevents universes from glitching, like judiciary laws. Each being owns its own universe in a sense. What matters more to a being is the collective, nobody can live alone, unless that is everything or nothing but something. This imposes the moral rules of the collective which tries to minimize the energy (some form) in a sense, or there is a slow growth of entropy, which is desired.  This ‘slow’ growth (in a relative sense) matches our timescales so that we can function. Otherwise, there is a big shock which one cannot live in as such.

What is living?
One way to think is, living is to experience all kinds of emotions.
Living beings and Non-Living beings. If one analyze this far enough to the boundary, one might realize the unspoken meaning. It can only be felt by beings as if they convey some form of aura, and then one can start talking about spirituality.

If I write:
[‘it is’ – it means according to my experience, I trust it enough]
[‘I think’ – I sort of trust it, but is a possibility according to my own experience and how much I trust others’]

What is Communication for a being?

Brain is the filter for the thoughts through mind to put it into practice through body.

How to write a flow of thought- connect unconscious and conscious, connect motor neurons to conscious- think and write!, If there’s a typo or a mistake, it probably means that thought process deviated while thinking, and it might not be what you meant, or could be the ‘imperfections’ of training of the brain. Its strange that I never really read many books, and my reading speed is river now somehow. Some things that can only be learnt in real-time.

How to write? Not everything is conveyed through conventional writing. Like an idea of a gadget would be to connect a digital color-pen to the brain which uses the color of feelings (or font style) to write while writing, or typing. I wonder if fonts have meaning! While, this goes back to old-school writing using color pens and paper. Font style with feelings and colors to choose from but manually. How to convey, the depths of a being are conveyed most efficiently in face to face writing. Text/Image, Speech, Video, Hologram, a Being…

Ending note(s) for this post (optional)
Butterfly effect and anti-causality.
If a small change can cause a hurricane, entire hurricanes must happen to revert certain small changes. For those who like exponential growth, careful initial point is very important. If it doesn’t feel like it, its not meant to be.

Also, another thought is, if the entire universe with all its past and future is defined, as finally there would be the only one to experience, like, the entire space except the point at that time defines the ”Fourier Transform” of that point in all time. Put some fuzzy boundary of a Being, and rest of the world is my mind, which I need to take care of. Fortunately the laws of physics when applied reverse in time give multiple possibilities. As one cannot predict past state from the present without something.  TENET movie could be an example.

Thoughts affect actions and actions affects thoughts, quite literally as well. One might  run into blind belief here, but what is living…

Either the end points of the universe in time are defined, or not, or is an infinite loop, the rest dark sides of philosophy don’t matter, and some things can be ignored, they are  thoughts.

Once you reach the boundary, rest is researching, the existing and the new.
Watch anything in reverse, it looks magical. Retrospecting too. Do we travel to past in our dreams? or if we traveled, we shouldn’t know the future, and it would not be traveling in a sense, but it is some for of travel too. Or are they the manifestations of our memories. Also, does one remember their past as in third person view, or first person view?? power of mind, mystical.

Joke of the year : Its 20-20. (+-) or (-+) or both at the same time. Heisenberg diplomat.
Now I’d like a curve of emotions for those who try to read this in their entirety, wrote this in one go, reading in one go?

PS. I removed all the ‘just’s from the text, except this one, there were plenty of them.

-Ajinkya
Source : Experience, Thoughts and my mind.