I wonder what should I write!

I haven’t been able to achieve what I wanted to, that just puts me back, at endless depth of thinking, will ever I be able to achieve what I wanted to? Reality is, that limitations restrict, the constraint our lives depend on is ultimately linked to the free choice of doing something based on feelings, our feelings do not necessarily affect each other without any communication, that perhaps could be the marvelous observation and reality that (perhaps may) allows beings to steer the reality that we exist in. Time does not exist, so it does not make sense to talk about future, or one may fall into the depths of free-will and no-choice. However, if one may feel and is restricted by it, one may falsely create an absence of free-will, or so I think in this moment. Physical world is fixed, by all its standards to our minds and our knowledge base, the world we call science. However, the mere existence of matter and feelings (or force?) makes thinkers dig into depths where it lacks proof of any kind and so unacceptable, or so has been the case. Oh how “I” as an isolated conscious being was even created into this world!, how do I exist as a being which feels various senses and emotions.
This post is just a solution to a trap in philosophy! 🙂 🙂
If everything was fixed and we would experience the single flow of reality, it adds an another dimension which does not exist, though if we would think about all the present and stack through entire flow of matter, it would be fixed, although, the being is merely thinking in its brain about the stuff that is made up, and hence this may not really exist!!

An open ended question would never be solved, and so its called open ended, and could manifest as a mere feeling of thinking in language, feelings are feelings and thats the end of it, just like touch is touch, and never one can say actual touch in a language which feels like actual touch. #itiswhatitis #maybe

So I wonder then, how will I live my life, in this world where everything is to be sought after, nothing comes free except the result of my feelings and thinking, although its feels magical on the existence of the thought itself. How did in this universe, a thought through physical processes of ion flow is manifested as a feeling which is very unique.

How do other people affect me, how do I get affected by them. It seems to me that in nature, there is a coincidence, which could be how my brain detects random occurance as, or there would be something working for real, I still find hard to believe as it does not last all the time… still lost at the moment. or is it the brain’s defence for self preservation when some needs like interaction and usual human activities are not met? ah feels superhard…!