Life 1 day

If you want to contribute and make impact,
but what after making the impact,
are all problems solved, or new problems are created,
life is an exponential, never ending existence in this universe.

Oh I feel so drained out sometimes, maybe that’s just my bank-balance I’m feeling.

Maybe we are alive, or do what we do is because the fleeting nature of life, if we had 10000 years to live, it would be a lazy life, knowing all the things the mind already makes us experience, but again, there are beyond many experiences that can be felt, but again generalization of mind can in imagination capture those experiences.
If we had 1 day to live from birth, practically we wouldn’t be able to do much as we see it now. But if we had only 1 day to live today, given the grown form of us, things would be diverse and different specific to each person.

Nature (with beings of all forms) can be rewarding but also cruel. It is what had made us us, but it also shows the destruction of forms. Its beyond human to fully grasp the nature of beings and the planet we live in, in its psychic form, maybe it doesn’t understand itself, much like we don’t understand the core of us. Probably, it sees us, and we see it. It feels us, and we feel it. It nurtures us and it nurtures it. It destroys us and we destroy it. And at the end, whenever that may be, for the beings, or the planet, there would have been new forms from lineage someplace else.

For now, life feels just being at the mercy of these tools of computer, smartphone, AI, because everybody else has it. If you ever know it, as a person born without any cyberstuff for my body, the life is different in society where there is tech, and where there is raw nature. Both offer competitions sometimes and not, and challenges and not. Necessities drive the actions, but in the end its a play of emotion, which governs reason, and reason is mechanical, can be put onto robots.
Every now and then I feel my achievements reset, and I feel lost the feelings that I felt, which was never me. I forget all the things, as if some force in my mind is affected by the people that I’m going to meet in future, and I’m just sitting, by myself, sometimes feeling dumb, knowing all the complexity there is, to avoid unnecessary thinking, and save energy, but clueless about what I could do in moment, the many things I could do, but I couldn’t be cause of the constraints. But also I do many things that I could because they are simply possible from me, which are just in the way, to next things. But these things are not what I chase for, perhaps the goals feel to ambitious to ever have, but if you see and catch on to that growth entire world is going through, its follows an ultra rapid, mind overwhelming pace which is hard to be kept up, and with money as well.
Why chase things, why not enjoy what you already have, but I think its just beyond myself , as I constantly look for newer experience, which involves growth of some form, or thoughts which traverse the planes of existence, or current feelings.

So maybe I should focus on things that nobody else can, like throwing my trash into local trash storage, or making myself breakfast, or do my laundry, and spend my time as I want to or as I could. Also, make some cellular physical and mental upgrades. And, maybe help myself with what I have, get make a robot do these tasks, then I could move up to higher pursuits. – My inner conscience.